I think thin women actually go through a lot of the same experiences. People would assume I was anorexic just because I was skinny. It didn’t matter how much ice cream and pizza I ate. People attacked me as if there was something wrong with me, as if I was sick, as if I was a problem child, etc. They told me I was in denial and even that I was lying about throwing up. As an adult, I do not care anymore. But sometimes I still feel like I have something to prove when I’m eating with people.

When I gained nearly 30 pounds in 5 months in high school after getting put on some medication, everyone acted like I was “recovering” and like I should be happy with such a drastic body change. It was ultimate mind-fuckery. After I got off the meds, I remember crying to a boyfriend when my weight got “too low” again. Then I realized everyone can just fuck off.