Ugh. This is what I’m optimizing for. I would never in my life fake an orgasm. In fact I have to have the following conversation with every guy:

“The nerves of my clitoris were cut when I was 18. You will never be able to give me an orgasm ever. So you have to be into me using my vibrator or it’s not going to work out.”

I honestly feel angry at other women who do not say what they need. However difficult it is for these other women, it is much more difficult for me, and I obviously do it. All these women who fake it make it so much harder for me because I have to deal with these guys who need so much instruction and do not seem to get that if I have not cum, sex is not over. I had to have a tear filled conversation with a guy who at least seemed like my dream guy, where I told him:

“I may have these special needs, but I’m worth it. I still deserve to enjoy sex the way I can despite what happened to me. I need to be able to orgasm too and I need you to be into it. So far you haven’t been. If this is something you can’t do, this needs to end.”

If I can put my foot down with something so much more difficult, why can’t other women simply ask that their normal, undamaged sexuality be catered to?