Why didn’t I think I was allowed to talk about vulvas?

When I first decided I needed to do something to stand up for myself and stop what happened to me from happening to others, I did not believe I could talk about what happened to me or what I was doing. I isolated for years. I talked about paralyzing shame bc I couldn’t tell anyone what happened or what I was trying to do. I said I wished it had happened to my arm or leg instead.

Until this year, I believed it was against the rules to talk about vulvas. And now I can’t figure out why.

Has culture changed? Is it different now? Or was this a fake rule in my own head all along?